Part II: Mirror, Mirror, On The Wall, Who Is The Fairest One of All?

Author: Andrenee Boothe
aboothe@believersreport.com

My life went downhill from that point.  I would meet guy, after guy, after guy, looking for acceptance and approval every chance I got.  I was hungry for it at all costs.  

I’m sure you are wondering well, what happened to your relationship with God? Weren’t you in church?  That’s a good question.  Yes I was in church.  I was even singing on the choir.  I was singing Sunday after Sunday about a God that I had been taught about…… but not a God that I KNEW for myself.   My outward show of worship was only a mask....I had a form of godliness but denied its power.

And so I went on crash diets, would go bankrupt spending money on clothes, I went here and there, always on a search to find a way to fit in and be appreciated for who I was both inwardly and outwardly.  Nothing really seemed to fill that void.

Every time I would measure my self-worth & beauty to the mirror of the world I always fell short.  I was always never tall enough, short enough, skinny enough, and all the other “enoughs” you could think of.

After years of my pursuit for acceptance, I finally gave up! I cried out to this God that I sang about and said to him “I am tired of living like this! I can’t do this anymore! Please help me.  Help me to love me, the good and the bad.  I don’t want my worth to be measured by anyone else anymore, God please, please; if you hear me, just help me!

It was painful letting all of that out to Him and making myself feel so vulnerable, but it surely felt great afterwards.  I wiped my tears and for the first time, I knew what it felt like to cast my cares upon God.  I heard it and sang about it, but I finally did!!!! Wow! It felt good!

I kid you not; my journey of self-discovery began immediately.  I’m not going to say that I grew fully confident overnight, but from that moment, everything around me began to change.  God would use different people, articles and books to open up my mind to really see what true beauty is.   The moment you invite God into a difficult situation, He sends you all of the resources needed to overcome it.

Stay tuned for Part III of Mirror, Mirror, on the wall, who is the fairest one of all?